Clayton

Good morning Goddess!

Here is my story in all it's shameful glory:

Despite frequently finding myself in leadership roles and often being a resident expert or team lead throughout my life, i have always had submissive and bisexual temptations and leanings.   However, i have consistently pushed back against these trends based on my faith/church background and the moral shame that induces.  Despite addiction to porn and lightly experimenting in Femdom fantasies, i remained a virgin all the way through college and beyond, just kind of stumbling along in my sexuality.  In my mid 20s, i got married to a vanilla woman whom i love, but the vanilla sex, though frequent, did nothing to satiate those hidden, kinky desires deep within.  When some trauma struck and caused our sex life to come to a screeching halt, those desires shifted into overdrive and i began to search elsewhere for a way to scratch that deep, addictive itch.  Over the span of several years, while only having sex with my wife 2-3 times a year, i dabbled in some experimentation and had some interactions with guys, but it was limited and spread out, shrouded in intense shame and deep in the closet.  No one that i ever interacted with in person or on-line knew my identity and i would only have very brief interactions before flaking and disappearing in shame.  i couldn’t even fully follow through with things like eating my own cum or drinking piss and i would flake out on pain even though i craved the submission and humiliation.

Enter Goddess Aria.  i stumbled into her content while dabbling in other Femdom clips and my first taste was her “Rewrite Your Vows to Cock” clip.  Her intimate power and commanding presence had me hooked and i soon fell headlong into her trap by succumbing to her week of Blackmail training; failing every single mailtimer and discovering an insatiable love of homewrecking and blackmail content soon followed by gooning, forced bi, and humiliation clips among others.  She knew my identity, giving her immense control over me which kept me from running away and under her powerful guidance and manipulation, i began to deepen my submission.  i can consistently eat my cum for her, discovered how to ruin my orgasm, and learned to drink my piss for her.  i also delved into pain, humiliation, and exposure kinks.  One of her favorite events during this time was when i baked a sweet potato pie, fucked it on camera for her, came in it, and then ate it. 

Then came the forced bi.  i sucked a cock for the first time in years during the middle of Faggot February 2024 (she was so proud).  Then came her Cocksucking Blackmail Contract at the end of the month which i signed right off the bat.  Filled with shame, i bought out of that contract in June before resigning less than a month later when spiraling for her once again (two coaxing voice messages from her was all it took and i was on the hook again even after buying out for $2k).  Shortly after resigning, i fell back into a pattern of shame and guilt, so i nearly failed this task and i couldn’t afford to buy out again.  it took me until December to actually follow through with sucking for her once again and, in the process, ended up getting fucked by that guy as well (much to her delight…).  Then, the next Faggot February in 2025, i resisted and fought signing that dreaded contract again until, in a moment of weakness, i bought a mini-custom from her.  The video she made for me was absolute fire where she used her power to coax me into signing.  Then, i couldn’t stop watching that same video and ended up signing her contract a total of 7 times.  Suddenly, i was now buried in a cock debt of 7 cocks or $17,500 dollars which i had zero chance of ever being able to afford.  Begging for help to get motivated for this monumental task, she provided assistance by setting deadlines with various penalties and drawing me in with more mini-customs.  One time, in a panic to suck a three cocks within a week, i found myself sneaking in the window of a young guy from Grindr.  He wanted to fuck me too and i was in a position where i couldn’t refuse because i just needed cocks to suck.  Thus, i found myself getting bred for the first time for Goddess.  The video of me sucking during this encounter got posted in pixels on Goddess Aria’s X until i was able to suck the 2 additional cocks, one of which was a massive BBC which kept growing in my mouth to the point that i could barely get my jaw open wide enough.  i had whittled the requirement down to 4!  But, in another moment of weakness and at her powerful coaxing, i signed that darn contract 3 more times.  Sucking in my car, swallowing several loads, getting fucked bareback and bred in a hotel, and i got to the end of 2025 still needing to suck 2 more cocks to fulfill all those contracts. i managed one final, desperate push and sucked the last 2 cocks, but the video requirements did not work out, so i was left begging for an extension.  Her condition for a month extension was getting fucked on camera with her name on my body…gulp.  So, in February of this year, i met a dominant guy who fucked me raw with my own frozen cum for lube while my cock and balls were all tied up.  “Goddess Aria’s Slut” was written across my chest and it was filmed all for her enjoyment and my utter humiliation. 

During this last push, my body count for guys is now higher than my body count for women if you count oral sex and Goddess Aria has loved that little extra shame for me.  She also recently sent me to an adult store to get some sexy lingerie and butt plugs which she had me wear to church.  

i am now Goddess Aria’s little submissive bitch and cock slut to do with as she pleases. Every time i attempt to squirm away, i come crawling back begging for more.  i both crave and dread what lines she will push me to cross next.  As she likes to remind me, i get harder for her forcing me to think about cock than i do for my own wife.  i am a helpless toy in her hands…

Please feel free to share the pics/video i included if you want.  Please don't use my full name, but i leave it to you to decide if you want to use my initials or first name.  i am so scared of my name being out there publicly, but i also crave the humiliation of hearing you say it.